my dad and my mom have an odd but funny personalities. my sense of humour and that of my siblings could be traced from them, as i've said time and again. unlike the other parents, we could talk to them and joke w/ them without fear of being scold. i remember how in one mass, the homily is all about respecting the parents and not thinking of them as friends nor as equals. My dad took advantage of the homily by reiterating in the car that we should listen to what the priest said: "sabi ng pare ndi tayo parang magkakaibigan lng ha". i immediately replied: " kung kaibigan ka namin...ikaw yung kaibigan na out of place sa min!" my brother added: " kaw ung kaibigan na iiwan iwan namin!" and my eldest sister gave her share by saying: "ikaw yung tataguan namin kapag may gimik!". my poor dad could only laugh w/ us as we mock his attempt to teach us a lesson. :D  

so i went out on a date by force. i tried to refuse it, but friendship got the better of me. i went against my will. naturally, my opinion remained the same even after the date....apathetic and uninterested. don't get me wrong, the guy is nice and interesting (just not to me). he turned out to be one of those guys. guys who text you every morning 'morning!'. my friend who was trying to match me with this guy keeps on telling me how i should give him the chance and all the bull crap about the guy being nice and having the personality...honestly, i would've dated my gay friends if those were the only criteria!

so my question now is...if you're not that into a guy...how do guys prefer for us to tell them? should we tell them outright that we're not interested? should we just refrain from texting back? or should we continue being nice and break it to them at the saddest point of their lives? my bestfriend suggested that i tell him immediately: 'no, i'm not interested'....but i immediately reminded her that we're talking of a guy whom i have actually dated and not just some random telemarketer.

again, this is not in anyway an awful reflection of the guy that i have dated. whoever said the line 'it's not you. it's me' is exclusive to men. ;)

you know how i told you that i have the coolest friends? I STILL STAND BY WHAT I SAID. my true friends are the best. i wouldn't have my humour or you wouldn't be interested about what i have to write right now if not for the friends who have been influencing me (whether good or bad). the thing is...my friends are my kind of people. we can talk about sex, politics, religion, showbiz, and other relevant or trivial issues without judgements and more importantly without boring each other. they don't play cool...they just really are cool. we love talking but we know how to LISTEN. and you know what else? again, i am so proud to say that they are far smarter than some people who thinks they are smart just because they could be some nasty little dweebs. and when i say smart, i mean intelligent-smart and not trying-so-hard-to-sound-smart. pleaaaaaaase...in case you've failed to notice I AM NOT DYING TO BE WITH YOU so stop judging my friends and just go back to your people who are probably as lame as you are. life is so easy you know...i am what my friends are...now if you don't respect my friends...chances are i can't be with you. sorry but i just don't like hanging out with losers. (ooops, god i hate that i'm honest!) 

i was accused of being gay. i don't get it. these days, is single beyond 25 equal to gay? i can't believe that guy. you shouldn't pass judgement on people you barely know just because they have short hair, or they're single, or because they don't conform to your crude standards. you know how people say that you shouldn't be upset when something you're being told of isn't true? i thought i agree to this. but now that i'm in the situation...it is actually vexing. i mean it's extremely lame. this is petty i know but seriously...YOU DON'T KNOW ME, I DON'T KNOW YOU...AND FRANKLY, I DON'T REALLY WANT TO KNOW YOU!!!! these people. (rolls eyes infinitely)

a couple of weeks ago my dad and my mum had their usual lover's quarrel about nothing. as disgusting as it may seem (considering their age), i'm still fascinated with how they keep the fire burning. my dad told me and my siblings how he will not talk to my mum to teach her a lesson. after a couple of hours, he started talking to my mother because he needed something from her. it was so hilarious that i told my sister how loser our dad is.hehe
then my sister said i got IT from my mum. whenever i fight with either her or my brother they always end up talking to me first. it's a terrible trait i know and i'm really trying to get rid of it. it's just hard to be the bigger person (figuratively speaking) at times. specially when i know that it's not my fault. it couldn't be my fault. darnit! just a hard habit to break!!! :D

i have had several blogs in the past. and i have deleted all of them recently. reading my past is both painful and nostalgic. i suddenly had an epiphany that life isn't about whining and fidgeting rather it's about living it at your best. don't get me wrong, i did not convert to another religion. i have just decided to lessen the dramas.

so to start it right, let me introduce to you the real L.A.. Just L.A....and no B.S. I am 27 years old and i love using ellipsis... as you may have noticed. I am a banker by profession. my family is my first love. they are after all the only ones who have been unfortunately putting up with my crazy mood swings throughout these years. my father implied that growing up i am the most stubborn among us siblings. i hate and love challenge all at the same time. being a good person is a struggle. but god knows i really try to be good. what baffles me though is despite my nastiness, i manage to attract good people. and when i say good, i mean quality people. hilarious, cool succesful people. it must be the rude and ruthless sense of humour. or maybe, being truthful these days is just a breath of fresh air. 

the thing with me is this....i have encountered a lot of people who tries so hard to be 'cool'. people who tries to be deliberately mean so that they could get a little sense of authority. people who impose that one should think highly of them. that's just not my style. i am mean but i try to get along. and i think that makes the difference. if we don't get along...chances are i really extraordinarily don't like you. not that it matters but that's quite alarming because i am normally just apathetic to people of a different league. but then again, it's not that you care.

i will now change my former address to 'unapathetic'. it's idiotic because i think there isn't such a word. but it's just to stress out that i am retracting from my previous claim that i am an almighty human being who doesn't give a rat's ass because i know i do.

oh god...i think i have matured. yikes?